blog posts that depress me.
Okay guys we seriously need to have a chat.
All you girls out there who see nothing but fat in the mirror and a face on every piece of food item which seems like its taunting you to eat it and see what happens, do not give in.
Yeah life is hard. If it was easy it wouldn’t be worth anything. Pushing on is the best thing we can do.
I’ve been there, to the point where I hurt myself because I hated everything I saw when I looked in the mirror. It gets better. It could take a week, a month, or maybe even years but really it does. I feel so much better than I used to. I would go a few days without food, trying to starve myself thin, then give in and binge eat, feeling more disgusted in myself than ever. The SECOND you eat after starving yourself your body WILL store it as fat. And you do have to eat eventually no matter what you think or you will die. You go straight past the good skinny into the sick skinny and then hello eating disorder. I know some people have a death wish, and to be honest, its a shame. No one deserves to die over wanting to be skinny but we’re girls. Shit happens. I know I would have given up everything I owned to be skinny again. Life just seemed better.
So I’m doing this right.
I’m starting again and even though I might fall down I will get straight back up and try the same thing over and over until I get it right.
It’s in this frame of mind that I know I’ll get there, so enough with the ‘poor me’ posts. You aren’t dying of a fatal disease or sickness, you aren’t living on the street and even though sometimes our families may not be what we want, at least there are people in your life you can look to for help and support, whether you see it or not.
I’m here to help but most importantly, I’m here to show you it can be done.
